I changed my attitude

This major depressive episode kicked my butt.  

Nothing has changed, my life still sucks but I know that I 

cannot live like this anymore.  

Something has to change. 

And the only thing I can change is the way I look at things

Yes, I am under a lot of stress.

Yes, I am sad and lonely.

Yes, my depression has consumed me.

But, I have to stop and take a look around me.

I am okay and that is all that matters.

Everything will work out, maybe not today or even tomorrow

but someday when the time is right.

As long as I do what I have to do then things will turn out fine.

I will never give up on me.

I will live one day at a time.

Because that is all I can do!

Selective Thoughts, Who Me?

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Day 11 of the 30 Day Blog-a-Day Challenge

“You need to learn how to select your thoughts just the same way you select your clothes every day. This is a power you can cultivate. If you want to control things in your life so bad, work on the mind. That’s the only thing you should be trying to control.” ― Elizabeth Gilbert  author of the bestselling book Eat, Pray, Love

This tasty little quote was in my email today from Positive Outlooks Blog.  I am in desperate need of learning to control my thoughts.  I am way too sensitive, over think every little thing, and care way too much about people and things that don't matter.  I don't think, I feel.  I want to develop selective thinking instead of selective hearing.

Being so overly sensitive has definitely been a curse.  I am so emotional.  I am tired of feeling like a cry baby.  My personal joke is that I should have been an actress; I can cry at the drop of a hat.

With that said, I became a blogger.  HA, no more waiting tables until I make it big, no auditions, and I do not have to remember my lines.  Instead, I write.  I don't want to be famous.  I just want to be heard, understood, and inspiring, without the negative, emotional thoughts and feelings of my depressed brain getting in the way.

Maybe with the help of blogging, I can even gain the power to control my thoughts and to be more selective when comes to my sensitivity and thought process.  Hey, who knows maybe I could learn to stop worrying!  Wouldn't that be grand?!? (*Grinning From Ear to Ear**)

No Negative Thoughts Allowed Here

It is time for the positive thoughts to take over!