Why be normal

Reality

Ready for Change

Once I am ready to get out of this bad funk I have been in, I hope to be able to move on and turn the page.  It does bring me some sense of comfort knowing that the book doesn't have to close, that people can still live on in my heart and not have to be in my life, and that leaving the comfort zone may be scary at first but it is so well worth it.

Depressed

I have been depressed more than usual lately and I cannot really put "why" into words.  Just anxious with life and what it is giving me; just not happy is about all I can say.  There has got to be more to life than this.  If I wasn't such a Facebook and Twitter addict at times, I wouldn't know what to do with myself.  I am glad that I have my blogs to keep me company.  I am hoping that the more I write about how I feel the more I will start to feel better.  Something's gotta give and I know that things will start to turn for the better soon but it is the present time thast I am having trouble with.  LOL.  I have had a taste of getting out of my comfort zone in the past 3 months and I liked it.  I need to pursue dating again since the last guy just up and stopped talking to me after 3 months.  Bastard! LOL  No explanation.  But anyway since I have been feeling this way, I have started smoking again and have had hives for over 3 weeks now.  So whatever needs to happen to make me feel better needs to happen fast so I can enjoy life.  Loneliness and boredom are the devil.

Love never fails...I still believe

Affirmation

Today, I choose to focus on Life's small gifts, a touch, a smile, a fragrance.

Today, I choose the Good that Life has to offer.

by Phylameana lila Desy

I will stop holding onto what hurts and
make room for what feels good. 

I don't have time to hate people who hate me because I am too 

busy loving people who love me.

The smile on my face doesn't mean my life is perfect, it means

 I appreciate what I have and what I am blessed with.

 I'm insecure, but I'm strong. I'm alone, but I'm loved. I'm sad, but I smile. 

I was given this life because I am strong enough to handle it. 

 I will enjoy each moment.

The Journey

I know that I am strong enough because I started this journey and it is in the journey that I will remain strong and have faith that I can live my life normally as I can.  I will learn the most from my journey.  I am  learning to be more positive, to have a better attitude about things, and to control my negative thoughts.  I am my own worst enemy at times and I must love and treat myself better.  Life throws a lot of curve balls that I am learning to dodge.  I am thankful for living and what I am now.  And I will keep fighting for what I want to be tomorrow.

Never Forget

Just a reminder that we are all beautiful, talented, and simply amazing! We are the best at being ourselves and don't ever forget it.  No matter what they say LOL

Sometimes: Never give up II

Sometimes I feel like I am being punished by not getting what I want from life but now I know that I deserve more and should never settle for less.  Life isn't easy and sometimes life gets in the way of letting us get what we want only because something better is around the bend.  We must work hard in life, take care of ourselves, and take care of others and things will start to materialize better than we could have ever imagined.  Never give up!!

Never give up

I know that things work out on their own time but sometimes it is hard not to give up.  This I know for sure, I will never give up on love and I will never give up on my life.  Depression can sure get me down some days but I just keep on getting back up and I will continue to fight to stay alive until I am very old.  I just hope that God finds me love soon, but I will practice patience each day because I know someday it will all be worth the wait.  I promise that I will never give up no matter how hard things get. So don't you give up either!  If I cannot give up neither can you.  Stay strong and things will get easier.