Seinfeld, the post about nothing!

Well for once in my life, I am at a loss for words.

I have no idea what to blog about.

I don't want to repeat myself or re-post 

something I have already written.

I don't want to bore anyone or myself for that matter.

I feel like Seinfeld.  I am just going to write for the

next half and hour (length of an episode) about absolutely nothing.

So, I guess I will be known as the blogger 

who blogged about nothing.

Hopefully, I will turn into a hit like Seinfeld after this post, 

doubtful, but still hopeful for the best.

Nothing has changed yet so much is different.

Now that the dark cloud that has been hanging over

me for the past few months has lifted, I need to get down

and dirty and sharpen my writing/blogging skills.  

I want to succeed at something.

Especially to be good at something I like.

Besides it keeps my life interesting.

Back to life, back to reality! 

I need to get my life back on track.

by learning to keep my mind, 
body, and soul in balance.

So please send all the good vibes you can my way.

I have neglected myself terribly.

There needs to be more love, positivity, and joy

in my life because caring for 
myself is not selfish; it is necessary.

I will find more peace in my days.

Toxic and negative people are not welcome here!

I welcome all the love, light, and peace I can get.

Make love not war, my friends.

(yada, yada, yada)

I Declare

So I declare that I am no longer going to wallow, 

swallow or whatever in self-pity.

I have been a mess these past few days.  

I feel so alone and worthless.

My life is a mess.  

I have got to figure things out. 

My car is dead.  It needs a new engine. 

My housing situation is way less than ideal.  

I am tired of the couch and the verbal abuse.

Having this damn depression makes mountains out 

of mole hills.  FML!

But no more woe is me.  Life can and will get better,

maybe not now, tomorrow but eventually.

I must do all that I can to rid my self of the negativity

that has been plaguing me lately.

So this Tuesday, June 18, 2013 I Delare! 

Some more reasons to why I have never been married LOL

No wonder I have never been married Hee Hee

                                                                                                                                                       If you don't have an Olive Garden near you, then you are missing out.  

They serve great Italian food, cuisine, and of course my favorite, delicious cocktails! 

www.olivegarden.com/Recipes

I usually save this for my other blog but since I love to eat and I promised to always keep it real well, this seems fitting then. Olive Garden is giving out the recipes of the food they serve.  How cool is that?!?  You can make food just like Olive Garden serves for probably cheaper and in the comfort of your own home.  Who Knew?!?

This was just too good to not pass on to you guys.  Now I am not much of a cook, okay, I lied, LOL I do not cook at all.  Just never saw the reason in it *Goofy Grin*, to slave in the kitchen for hours to just have everybody be done eating in 15 minutes.

I guess my daughter turned out okay.  I am sure that is up for discussion.  Oh well, this is probably another reason I have never been married *Chuckles while Shaking Head*  Anyway, don't forget to share with me what you made.  I would love to hear all about it.


Thanks to The Freebie Source for finding out that  Olive Garden was sharing their recipes!

Has it Been That Long?!?

It seems like forever since I have been on my blog.  Things look a little dusty around here.  Oh well, my home isn't dusted so I don't want to compete so I won't dust here either.  *GRIN*  So, dust off a chair and stay awhile.

I haven't been feeling so well, so I didn't want to be a Debbie Downer. I have been very depressed for a few days so bad as to not getting out of bed all weekend.  I think I got through this bad funk all on my own. *Pats Self on Back*  Well not completely alone.  I joined a secret, private group on Facebook, my other addiction.  It is a place where I feel most comfortable, even more comfortable than my blog sometimes, to talk about and converse with other people about how I am feeling.  They are a wonderful, beautiful group of people with mental health issues like myself.  I am grateful to be able to be a part of such an awesome group.  I would name the group but there are people in it that want to remain totally anonymous. 

You know me, I am willing to talk about almost anything and everything.  There really is no topic off limits with me but I respect other people and their reasons for being anonymous.  Mental Illness still has a stigma attached to it.  Hopefully in the years to come, the stigma will be lifted.  Well, that is all I have time for, for now.  Not to worry, blogging is still cheaper than a therapist.  Peace and Love.

Google Saved my Life, Saved me Lasting Despair

I just had a terrible scare.  I decided that I didn't need 2 gmail accounts so I decided to delete one.  Well I guess it was the primary one that I deleted..  I clicked on Blogger to go to my blogs and they were gone.  My heart sunk to the floor.  A strange feeling of deep despair came over me.  I thought I was going to have an anxiety attack.  I tried to calm down and think.  I kept trying to navigate through Google help and Blogger help but was getting confused.  I kept thinking "I need to speak to a real person, got to talk to someone." I even found an actual phone number for Google. But after a little bit, I just came to a screen and right there it said something about restoring an account. I followed the easy instructions and then right before my eyes as quickly as the  blogs disappeared everything popped up.  Thank God it worked.

I kept thinking "What am I  going to do?"  I worked so hard on my blogs for the last year.  I was devastated at what the outcome could  have been.  To have had to create my two blogs from the very beginning again would have been too much. I thought for sure that this was not going to turn out well.  But I am glad that I never gave up looking for a solution online.  Google saved my life along with the man upstairs.

It has been about a half hour since I almost caused a great catastrophic event and I still feel really funny inside. It was a really weird feeling that I don't think I will forget.  A feeling of such deep, dark, heaviness ascended upon my chest.  My breathing was heavy.  The feeling of such despair and impending doom is something I haven't felt in a very long time.  This all may sound stupid or look like I overreacted but I just had no control of how I was feeling on the inside.  I just kept busy looking for a quick solution in hopes the feelings I had would subside.

Whew!  That was a close one.  I thought I was doing the right thing but now I know it is just way much easier to deal with two gmail accounts than what could have happened.  I had worked hard to promote my blogs, establish myself in the blogging community, and was just starting to feel comfortable with the layout of my blogs.  Anyway, catastrophe diverted.

 I am too old to go through this again :LOL.  And to think I am fairly comfortable and knowledgeable with  computer issues and thought I knew quite a bit about online practices, yet I just about killed everything I had worked for. What was I thinking?  I will call Google in the near future and have them help me to get rid of one of the emails.  I am just too busy to have more than three primary email accounts.  Hell, I just about gave myself a heart attack over this episode. Until next time, I think I will have a drink.

Here is my post

In order to get more traffic and followers and to 

be more engaging to my blog I have read that 

I need to post more.

So here is a post!  HEE HEE

Aren't I just too funny today??!!?

Seriously though, I love all my followers 

and people that stop by.  Just that sometimes

I feel the need to lighten things up.  My blog 

has a tendency to be serious at times.