Update on my Life (in affirmation style)

I have decided to choose joy and positivity over sadness and negativity. #affirmation

I have been very sad and in a dark place for a long time now.  I got to where I was no longer interested in the things that used to bring me joy, like reading, writing, and most of all blogging (which I adore). I even stopped watching TV.  I just sat staring at the same four walls every evening and every weekend for months, stuck at home, feeling hopeless and alone.  The walls were literally starting to close in on me. Luckily, I went to work everyday and that kept me halfway sane.  I am finally tired of feeling stuck.  

I am able to do whatever I need to do to get myself to a better place. #affirmation

Now is the time to change what I am meant to change and accept what I cannot change.  I will set attainable goals in order to get my life back in living order instead of just survival mode. #affirmation 

I will no longer just go through the motions of each day. #affirmation 

I must start to live again, my health and well being depend on it. My daughter needs me now more then ever. She finally gets to see a psychiatrist on the 25th of this month. Hopefully, she will get on the right medication and get an actual full blown diagnosis so that she can get her moods stabilized and be able to finish high school early like we planned. I just want her straightened out and on the right track before she turns 18.
   
I am in therapy again and my psychiatrist upped my medication to try and give me some relief from all this sadness, darkness, self-induced stress,and depression I have been feeling.  

I will trust the universe to know what is best for me.  I will be able to gain the wisdom I need so that I will know what to leave alone (what I cannot change). This in turn will enable me to gain the strength to change the things I can and need to in order to do what is best for me and my life. #affirmation

I will take one day at a time. I am strong enough to live my life as I see fit. I am in charge of my mental health. #affirmation  

I am a beautiful, loving, caring, and deserving woman.  I accept myself for who I truly am. I am in charge of me.  I am making the changes necessary to better my life and myself. I am looking forward to change.  I am not here to please others. I am doing this for me.  #affirmation

And today is the day that my life begins again. I choose to experience the simple things in life again.  I am strong enough to kick this depressive state as I have done in the past. I am a fighter and I am ready for the next chapter in my life to begin. #affirmation 

Life, Give me all you got! I am Ready! 

Keeping my emotions in check

Can I, me Jamie, really learn to 

control my emotions?

I think my next endeavor may 

be to do just that.

I know my mind, my life, and most

certainly my blog posts are

all over the place but I really

don;t know how to be other

than randomly chaotic.

Irrational thoughts and 

actions need to no longer

 be a part of my life anymore.

Chaos must gather its' things

 and move on down the road.

Inner peace must prevail.

It is not only good for my

general well being but to

aid in the treatment and 

control of my depression; 

as well as maybe lead to 

less chaos in my writing.

You want to know how 

I am going to do this?

I am going to commit to using

affirmations on a daily basis.

I said commit and that is very hard

for me to do except when I 

do blog challenges, at least

the ones where I finish. HA!

They have gotten me prepared

for the real blog challenge 

that is about to begin. 

Like the challenge I am just now 

declaring for myself.

Challenge Accepted!

Wish me luck. 

Doubt just popped in my head.

(But I told it to go away)

Here are just a few affirmations 

to get me started:

(I will start out with future tense

and work my way to present tense)

These can be found at Free Affirmations

I will remain calm.

I will control my emotions.

I am transforming into someone

who is naturally calm and collected.

I will deal with my emotions in positive fashion.

I am beginning to think logically,

even in stressful situations.

**Read More**

**Thanks to Free Affirmation.org for being my

guiding light to make me strong yet calm and rational.

Poof!  Chaos, stress, and sensitivity be gone!

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