Plan B

Day 5 of the 30 Day Blog-a-Day Challenge

 I am officially putting together a Plan B in

case my primary plan: Expecting a Miracle,

doesn't work out right away. If you don't know

by now, my car died, my living situation

is less than ideal, and my life just sucks. 

Now I can choose the sit back miserably,

do nothing, and wait for the miracle or

I can choose to do something about

my miserable excuse for a life.

But I need to go easy on myself because

change can be very difficult and not

 to mention scary as hell, especially

since I lack patience, motivation,

and plagued by fear of failure. 

I am doomed before I can ever begin again

.

Time for some tough self-love:

Suck it up Jamie, Get Yourself Together,

and Just Do What You Need to do.

Well said, I might add!

My pep talk
(disguised as
an affirmation)
 is now session:

With that done and said, here is what I have come up so far.

Plan B, "My Life Revised":  A Work in Progress

***First and for most, I need a car. 

With no support financially and bad credit,

I have to come up with the money for a down

payment and sales tax. I have $500 need about $200 more.

I will take $100 from each of my next two paychecks

then maybe by July 19, I can get my car.

Flawless, maybe but can I wait that long?

***Secondly, I will focus on ways to leave
 my unhealthy environment behind for good.
I will research resources to help me with
first months rent and deposit. 

***Thirdly, I am revamping my whole financial
situation by writing up a budget, finding ways
to spend less and to cut costs, to
start an online store, and to file
bankruptcy, if needed.

WHEW! That should keep me busy!

To Be Continued!

Randomness

I go back to work tomorrow after having a week off, 10 days to be exact counting weekends and Good Friday.  I feel really exhausted.  It sucks that I have to go back to work to get a break.  So I am sitting her on my trusty laptop, just like I always am, and I am looking at new blogs and realized that I had eaten almost 3/4 of a bag of chips.  WTH!?!  I must have been hungry  I whisperer to myself, "Self, that is not the way to lose weight."  Not to worry, I  totally ignored myself, like I always do.

 It is 6:33pm and I am so ready to go to bed but  have I mentioned, we have a pig.  Waffles is a about 9 months old.  She is a a black Vietnamese pot-bellied miniature pig. She is the queen of power naps, doesn't sleep all through the night; she is just like a two year old. It doesn't look like I am going to bed anytime soon.  My daughter just broke up with her boyfriend so I know there will be drama tonight. Sometimes the drama in my house is too much.

So, goes another day in my crazy life.  Stay tuned to The Old and The Depressed.  I am sure there will be more to tell about this evening.