Note to Self

As long as you do what you know to be right, try your best, and are doing the best you can with what you have then at any given moment you will know that everything always works out.  Believe in yourself and your endless abilities.

Jamie's Quintessential Scoop on Life 2: Woo Hoo My Other Blog

Jamie's Quintessential Scoop on Life 2: Woo Hoo: This blog has just reached 10,001 page views!  How exciting is this!?!  Thank you all so much for stopping by, following me, and commentin...

Free Declutter Calendar for 2013

You will find short, weekly tips on saving time, taking care of yourself, relaxing ideas, organizing tips, and ways to create a saner, simpler life.   Get you 2013 Declutter Calendar from mysimplerlife.com! 
I am going to print mine out.  This calendar will help me relax, organize, and unclutter so I can work on more important things, like myself :)

Click Declutter Calendar to get your free printable calendar.

Thanks to Beth Dargis at mysimplerlife.com for offering this great
printable--Jamie

Gavin DeGraw--I Don't Wanna Be...

 Here are the lyrics to Gavin DeGraw's, I Don't Wanna Be

These came from metrolyrics.com

 I don't need to be anything other than a prison guards son 

I don't need to be anything other than a specialist's son 

I don't have to be anyone other than a birth of two souls 

in one Part of where I'm going is knowing where I'm coming from

 I don't wanna be anything other than what I've been trying to be lately 

All I have to do is think of me and I've peace of mind 

I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wondering what I gotta do Or who I'm supposed to be, I don't wanna be anything other than me

 I'm surrounded by liars everywhere I turn 

I'm surrounded by impostors everywhere I turn

 I'm surrounded by identity crisis everywhere I turn 

Am I the only one to notice? I can't be the only one who's learned

I don't wanna be anything other than what I've ben trying to be lately 

All I have to do is think of me and I've peace of mind 

I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wondering what I gotta do Or who I'm supposed to be, I don't wanna be anything other than me

 Can I have everyone's attention please? If you're not like this and that, you're gonna have to leave I came from the mountain, the crust of creation

 My whole situation made from clay to stone and now I'm telling everybody 

 I don't wanna be anything other than what I've been trying to be lately 

All I have to do is think of me and I've peace of mind 

I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wondering what I gotta to do Or who I'm supposed to be, I don't wanna be anything other than me 

I don't wanna be, I don't wanna be, no I don't wanna be, 

I don't wanna be anything Anything other than me 

 I don't wanna be 

I don't wanna be

 I don't wanna be 

I don't wanna be 

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 I have decided that this song is going to be my Anthem.  I struggle a lot with who I am and who I want to be. When all I really want is to just be me.  I don't want to be anything or anyone other than who I've been trying to be lately. I am working on self-acceptance and being happy with who I am inside and out. Happy with my depression, anxiety, and being overweight and with all the great things I have to offer myself and others. I am so glad that I have finally matured because I made the decision to not care about what anyone says about me; I no longer need others approval, I just need to please myself. Today has been a good day. Nothing big, dramatic, or exciting for that matter happened but I couldn't be more pleased at myself today and you know what? That says a lot. 

 Thanks to YouTube and metrolyrics online for the video and song lyrics so that I could write this post---Jamie

Something to Think About

Hoosiers in Top 10 Most Depressed

I am a lifelong resident of Indiana.  I was shocked (or maybe not) that Indiana is the 8th most depressed state in the United States.  I have always felt trapped here but that was probably the depression talking.  But I just feel that Indiana is behind the times in a lot of aspects but that is just my opinion.  Just a little interesting read about my home State of Indiana.  I thought I would share with you guys.  Click the link below to read the story.

 Hoosiers in top 10 most depressed | WTHITV.com Terre Haute, Indiana



Happy Saturday!!--Jamie

You Are Worthy of Receiving: 10 Things to Let into Your Life--Tiny Buddha

We let go when we let in.  The good stuff boots the bad stuff away.  So in 2013, if you are already struggling in your resolve to give up or let go, why don’t you join me in a challenge to “let in”?  The change of focus may make all the difference. 
Click on this link below to read this article :  
You Are Worthy of Receiving: 10 Things to Let into Your Life


Thanks to Tiny Buddha for this great article!  This is just what I needed to read.  I am learning to let go and forgive myself and others.  I want to be able to be open to love and happiness.  I now know that I know longer have to go through bad stuff in order to let the good stuff in.  I feel that the best is yet to come for me, maybe sooner than later. --Jamie

just.BE.enough's 3 Words "What Progress Have You Made?"

just.BE.enough has asked its readers to choose three words that will help them focus on their goals and dreams for 2013.  My three words I have chosen are:CHANGE, ACCEPTANCE, and PERSISTENCE.  
Now that it is the end of February I seem to be finally headed in the right direction.  For me, CHANGE couldn't come quick enough, yet this month I wasn't able to make a personal change and now I am disappointed.  I wanted to move out from under my ex and get my own place where my I could start living my life again.  But I am learning to accept the fact that the change I so desperately wanted to make will have to wait another year.  So ACCEPTANCE is the key to moving on from this setback.  But ACCEPTANCE in this instance, self-ACCEPTANCE, is something I started working on.  This is the main goal for me this year.  I have started a radical 10-day plan to find out who I really am and learn to accept myself as I am.  I will learn to say "Yes to my life".  Robert Holden's Radical 10-day Plan will teach me how self-acceptance will make me experience a revelation.  I will feel at home in my body, all roads will open for me, and a new journey will begin.  I am ready to see how good my life can get when I learn to love and accept myself.  I am exciting to start this 10-day plan.  Today is the first day of the plan.  Baby steps, right?  But progress none-the-less.  PERSISTENCE is the key to love and accept myself.

So, my goals are to make CHANGES in my personal life, learn to love myself and gain self-ACCEPTANCE in order to live a happier more fulfilled life, and to be maintain PERSISTENCE in all that I do.  I will never give up and I will reach my goals.  Even if it is having to live with my ex another year, but I will reach my goal to get my own place as long as it takes.  I will remain persistent and look forward to next year.  I will definitely make the most of this year while waiting to move next year.

With March comes a newness, a new growth a new beginning.  Spring is just right around the corner and I couldn't be more happier :)

Thanks again to just.BE.enough for this opportunity for me to participate in this project.  I feel good things are coming this Spring!  I am open and ready to receive good things in my life!  

My New Tattoo and the Deepness it Bears

Depression has been a part of my life for as long as I can remember.  I was diagnosed with depression at age 19 but I remember being a child and feeling sad.  So now at age 42, I have been able to deal with my depression and take it for what it is--an illness.  It doesn't define me, I am more than my depression.  I am deeper and smarter and more interesting than my illness.  But it is a part of me, it is a chronic illness that I manage with medication, journal writing, and this blog; along with positive thinking and controlling negativity in my life.  It is part of my life and now my 16 year old daughter suffers from depression.  Something I wish she never had to go through.

Now that I am older and no longer care what others think.  I can now begin to really live a better life and by doing so I am no longer keeping my major depressive disorder a secret, I am using this blog as a way to share my secret, as I have been for a while now.   And I wanted to show everyone that I am not afraid of mental illness and that I should not be judged, discriminated upon, or harassed for an illness that I have. I long for understanding and awareness.  Finally on to the title of my post.  I got a tattoo yesterday of the Depression Awareness Green Ribbon with a butterfly on my ankle.  The butterfly represents to me the feeling of being free to be me, finally able to break out of my cocoon.

Depression does not take away from my character. It should not be ignorance that reigns over mental illness.  False beliefs about mental illness can cause overwhelming problems.  Get the facts, inform others, and help end the stigma about mental illness.  We are all human beings!  Let's coexist with a better understanding of one another.


Note:  I feel like a weight has been lifted off me.  I believe that blogging is better than therapy, at least for me right now :)---Jamie, Mental Illness Survivor and finally Life Liver.