But I am making it, one minute, one hour, one day at a time.
I love her unconditionally, more than she realizes, more than she probably wants me too. I love my daughter more than anyone else. Yet, she has truly tested me this week. She made me doubt my own worth, my love for myself, and made me doubt my self-acceptance.
But I wake another day to face the challenges thrown at me, one minute, one hour, one day at a time.
I have got to come up with some better, different coping skills. I need to be ready, ready for anything. I have to remain strong. She needs me no matter how hard she tries to push me away.
But I will continue to get back up everytime I fall, one minute, one hour, one day at a time.
My wish for myself and for you this weekend is peace, love, and plenty of awesome coping skills. Maybe some Klonopin and a stiff drink (but not necessary together...Geez I would be knocked out ;p) might be in order this weekend for me while I think up some new ways to cope with my issues, my daughters' issues, and life itself.
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My son has aspergers and I know as a mom dealing with his emotional issues can really take a toll. I am ALWAYS looking for new coping skills. LOL ALWAYS. It is like a juggling act and as a parent I feel overwhelmed and like a failure because somedays I just can't hand him. But then I joke about developing a drinking problem, take a deep breath and go to bed to face it all another day.
ReplyDeleteI joke too about having a drink but I rarely do, just sounds good to talk about it LOL Mom's are the strongest people on the planet. <3
DeleteWhat a great wish! I think I needed it today, especially. Here's to wine for all of us on this Friday night! ;)
ReplyDeleteCheers! Now if only my pipes would thaw out so I can have a hot bath with that glass of wine ;)
DeleteI love how positive you are, stay that way! You can get through anything with the right attitude, I hope you have a peaceful weekend.
ReplyDeleteIt is truly a struggle but all I can do is keep trying :) Thanks so much same to you <3
DeleteMental health issues with a child aren't the only thing that can have you feeling that way...Like Mindie, I have one teenage son with aspergers, and both kids have Juvenile Arthritis. The meds often cause mood swings and personality changes that are nothing short of incredible. (I even blogged about that very thing over at Everyday Health this week: http://www.everydayhealth.com/columns/kimberly-poston-miller-the-juvenile-arthritis-mom/how-to-handle-your-chronically-ill-childs-temper-tantrums/) I guess I'm trying to say, you aren't alone-I've been there too (regularly) and feel your pain. I wish I could reach through and give you a cyberhug, because it sounds like you need one. One foot in front of the other, because doesn't the saying go something like this: Our track record getting though bad days is still 100%? Every day is a new day, and thank goodness every bad day comes to an end in 24 hours :)
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